Christmas Traditions

 Christmas is upon us.  Along with the controversy of whether Christians should celebrate it.  This is just my take on it.  You can agree or disagree.  You can argue your point, but it won't change my mind.  I am not trying to change your mind.   I just want to put this point of view out there.  

There is a big argument that Christmas started from "pagan" traditions.  That is true.  But what is a "pagan"? The term pagan is from the Latin paganus, an adjective originally meaning "rural", "rustic" or "of the country." As a noun, paganus was used to mean "country dweller, villager."^[7] The semantic development of post-classical Latin paganus in the sense "non-Christian, heathen" is unclear.(Wikipedia)  So, it kinda sounds like the ancient equivalent of "redneck"!   

As many of you know, I love to research history and  genealogy.  I have traced both mine and my husband's family back to Ireland and Scotland.  I have also researched the history of these 2 countries.  They are places of alot of history that has been written or passed down through the generations.  They had lots of traditions that were established and passed down as well.

I will use Scotland as my example since that is where the earliest of my known ancestors lived.  Christianity did not come to Scotland until the 2nd century BC and was not really established until the 6th century BC.  It was established in England as early as the 3rd Century BC.  When you look back through history, you will see that England considered itself to be more modern that Scotland, especially the area known as the Highlands.  They didn't really know about their traditions, and just assumed that they were all a bunch of ignorant country people.  Or rednecks,  Or pagans.  They made it their goal to "conquer" these people and "convert" them to their modern ways and "save" them.  

The priests and missionaries quickly learned that the easiest way to get the local population to convert was to incorporate that population's traditions.   Alot of what has been labeled as "good" or 'bad" from these traditions was based on these priests' personal preferences and not on a biblical principle.  I think that incorporating these traditions was a great idea.  This is no different than singing hymns and using native instruments while evangelizing in Africa.  After all, these instruments have been used in cannibalistic practices in the past.  My point is, just because something was not established by Jesus while He was here on earth, it does not make that practice inherently evil.  All humans have traditions.  That is part of being human. It is almost impossible to avoid symbolism that hasn't at some time or another been used in a pagan context.  John 1:1 tells us that "all things came into being through him and without him not one thing came into being" therefore, Christians should pick up the tools that are around and use them to evangelize in the name of Jesus.

There are those who criticize Santa Claus.  Even he has a basis is history, as evidenced by the story of Saint Nicholas.  There are many different traditions that are attributed to him.  I have no way of knowing how much is true, but he is still a good example to point out to my kids.  With all of the idiocy that is being promoted by our modern celebrities, I will take ANY good example to show and teach my kids.  I explain it as he was a good man who did good deeds and we should try to do the same as this is pleasing to God.  

I choose to celebrate Christmas in a traditional and religious context.  It is a good time to be thankful for our families and to spend time with them.  It is a good time to give a gift to those we love and show them that we care.  I know we could do this any time of the year, but we often get so busy that we forget and it is good to have a time that is set aside to do this.   It is a good time to pass down stories and traditions to my children.  It is their birthright.  They need to learn to honor and respect their elders and ancestors.  They were the ones who made it possible for my kids to be here today.  It is also a good time to sit down and read the story of the greatest gift ever given to mankind.  The days are short and it limits the time the kids can play outside. This gives us time to read and discuss these things in the evening.   Do I know for a fact that it is Jesus' birthdate?  No.  Does it really matter?  No.  Would it matter if I never talked to my kids about Jesus?  YES!  

I really don't think the God cares about the little details such as the date, the amount of money spent on gifts, the perfectly decorated house and tree.  There are so many bigger problems in the world.  I do think He is concerned with whether we introduce our kids to Jesus, and about teaching them what it means to be a Christian.  Gift giving, donating to the needy, and being considerate of others are parts of that lesson.  

As parents, we teach our kids many things.  Not all of them revolve around our religion, but we can incorporate our religion into some aspects of these lessons.  For example, we teach them about good table manners.  Should we not teach this since it is not a religious lesson?  Or should we add a blessing to it and kill two birds with one stone?  

That being said, I will admit that my Christmas celebration is a preference.  If I were given the option of having a tree or being shot, I would take the tree down in a second!  If I was told to deny Christ or be shot, I would just have to commend by soul to God.  

God bless each of you and your families this season!  No matter how you celebrate, I hope you all have a very MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

A New Venture

Today, I took the first step in a new venture.  I have been looking for something to do that would help me feel useful and use my nursing skills.  I am unable to work full-time due to Claire's seizures, and while I enjoy some aspects of staying home, it gets pretty boring sometimes.  Thus, all the Frontierville posts on Facebook ;).  It is also true that being an at-home mom offers NO validation!  No one ever notices what I do until I DON'T do it!  I have really missed feeling useful and appreciated.  So I have decided to volunteer for a local ministry.
Hope Resource Center is a local crisis pregnancy center.  It is the exact opposite of Planned Parenthood.  It offers counselling based on biblical values, and gives clients a chance to make an informed decision about the best course of action for their lives.  It does NOT encourage abortion.  It gives the ladies tools that will be useful to them for the rest of their lives.
I look forward to being able to be a blessing to young women, and I pray that God will use me to show them His plan for their lives.
You can find more information about Mississippi Pregnancy Centers here:  http://mschoose-life.org/

A look at having a special needs child

WELCOME TO HOLLAND

by

Emily Perl Kingsley.

c1987 by Emily Perl Kingsley. All rights reserved

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."

"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."

But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."

And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.

But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

This describes our family exactly.  This is not what we thought we would be doing.  It has taken alot of time and prayer and ranting, but we have finally reached the point where acceptance and even embracing this life has happened.  I don't know why God chose our family, but I pray that we do right by my daughter.

Immigration

I have been listening to President Obama's speech on immigration reform.  I was surprised that I actually agreed with alot of what he said.  But the more I have thought about it, I have got to point out a few things.
First, my ancestors were immigrants.  They came from Ireland and Scotland.  I am not sure how much you know about history, but they were not generally treated well when they arrived.  I don't have time to go into all of it, but just think back to the movie, Far and Away.  You will get the general idea.
I love the idea of the big Melting Pot.  Each culture here has left it's mark on America, and yet America is unique in it's own way.  It is like we have kept the best of each culture.
In times past, people came here because their lives in their home countries was not ideal, and they wanted to improve themselves and the opportunities of their children.  They came, they learned English, and they worked very hard and were productive members of society.
It seems that the global society has changed.  Now alot(no, not all)of today's immigrants make their first stop at the local welfare office.  As a nurse, I have personally seen this.  I am not against helping people.  But there is NO WAY our country can afford to provide for the welfare of our own people, much less ones from other countries!
Then we have the whole national security facet.  I posted a link on FB last week about Hamas setting up a camp in Mexico just south of San Diego!!  We NEED secure borders!  Our children DESERVE them!  We are the only country in the world that does not secure our borders!!  It is insane!
I don't have the answer to the problem.  But neither does Congress, and they get paid to have one!  That is the problem with letting the rules relax and letting people slide by without enforcing the laws.  You wind up with a big mess that is not going to be able to be resolved without alot of pain and suffering on someone's part.  I just pray that it does not affect me and my family.
That is my rant of the day.  Just a few thoughts.  Suas Alba!!  Erin go braugh!!  God Bless America!!!

Mother's Day

With what price we pay for the glory of motherhood.  ~Isadora Duncan


I have had a wonderful Mother's Day weekend.  My 6 year old son has really embraced the holiday this year!  He made his daddy take him shopping and made sure to get me a necklace and roses.  My daughter has autism, and I am not even sure she knew it was a holiday.  She did tell me Happy Mother's Day when prompted by her daddy.  


My kids may not always act like they love me.  They fight with each other, disobey me, and treat me like a maid most of the time, but I am the one they want when they are hurting or scared.  I guess that means something, right?  I can only pray that I do everything right enough to raise them up right!


Sunday night is here.  That means Monday is just hours away.  I really hate Mondays.  It means  house cleaning and tons of laundry.  But I am really dreading it this week.  My reign as Queen is over :(

Different, not less

Different, not less.  This is a quote by Temple Grandin.  There is a wealth of truth in it.  Parenting, especially balancing multiple kids, is hard.  Parenting with an autistic kid and a neurotypical kid is like a roller coaster ride.  There are so many emotional ups and downs.
I constantly worry that I am not doing enough for each of my kids.  I don't want to make either of them feel that I have put the other first.  C is 11---with the mentality of about 5-6.  B is 6--with the mentality of about 7-8.  It is kind of funny how they have reversed roles and he acts like the older brother.  He dotes on her like she is his own personal baby or pet!  But sometimes, you can tell that he just wants to be Mama's baby boy.
C has autism, epilepsy, ADHD, and mild CP.  Obviously, she takes up alot of my time and energy.  She needs help with so many little things that he has done on his own for for a while now.  She has to be constantly prompted to do the things she knows how to do.  Caring for her is a full-time job for anyone.  B is very independent and likes to think he knows how to do everything.  And he is usually right!  So at the end of the day, I feel utterly exhausted from dealing with her, and guilty because he has basically cared for himself all day.  I have been trying to carve out little times for me to read to him or do something else that he like to do.
Friday was a typical roller coaster day.  I had C's IEP meeting first thing.  She will be going into 5th grade next year.  She has improved some in her reading and math, but basically we are staying the course.  Not bad, but not a big breakthough either.  Just another reminder of how hard life is for her.  Then I get a call to B's school because he is not feeling well.  His teacher just bragged on him.  She says that even though he is in kindergarten, she feels that he is ready for 2nd grade.  She is going to suggest that he be placed in a multi-age class with 1st and 2nd graders next year.  I am really proud of him, but at the same time I feel guilty because I don't feel that way about C.
I guess that is just life.  I don't love one of them more, but it is a slightly different kind of love.  I love him with a fierce pride.  He has excelled at so much.  I love her with a fierce protectiveness.  I don't want anyone to hurt her or make fun of her.  And I wish I could somehow make things easier for her.  She may be different, but she NOT less.

Mommy Doubt

Have you ever wondered if you are a good Mom?  I must admit that I do it all the time.  I am constantly second-guessing myself.  Anyway, I had that experience last week.  My son had the stomach virus.  He is prone to puking for no apparent reason, so this was really no big deal.  Plus, I am a nurse, so I figured I could handle it.  Except that it wouldn't go away.  He started vomiting Sunday night.  Monday night, I asked FB friends how long it had lasted with their kids.  Most said about 24 hours.  So I figured I would give super-gag-reflex boy and extra day.  By Wednesday morning he was still throwing up and had started running a fever.  So I finally made an appointment with his doctor.  We had a late afternoon appointment, and by then he was just pitiful.  I felt like dirt!  Surely, with a nurse for a mama, he ought to be better!!  Labs came back, and he was too dry so we had to be admitted overnight for hydration.  Okay, I really felt lower than dirt!!  Surely, I could care for a kid better than that!!  I spent most of the night going over his whole illness in my head.  Turns out, I would have done everything the same.  I did all the right things.  They just didn't work this time.  Then I spent some time thanking God that we live in modern times where IV hydration is available!! It amazes me how fast a little one can dehydrate, and it amazes me even more how quickly they can perk up!!  He came home the next day.  He was puny for a few days, but as soon as he started eating good, he was back to his normal self.

Did I mention that he is my easy kid??  My daughter has autism and epilepsy, and that is a whole other can of parental doubt!!  It is a constant attempt to try and balance her anxieties in public places and trying to push her to expand her horizons!  I just have so much trouble trying to see if her meltdowns are partial panic attacks or typical tantrums!

I suppose most parents have these doubts.  Unfortunately, our kids don't come with owner manuals.  It probably weighs more on the minds of moms than dads, since we spend so much time with the kids.  I just hope and pray that I do mostly the right things.  I hope I remember to teach them all they need to know to function properly in the world, and to productive members of society.  I know she will have her limitations, but hopefully she can be semi-independent.  It is times like this, when the weight of responsibility seems almost more than I can bear.  Then I look around and realize I am not alone.  I have a great support system among my FB friends and family.  So remember--you have to keep me on the right track!!  No pressure there, huh??

Holiday Blues

Well, here we are at another school holiday.  Let me just say that I have mixed feelings about school holidays.  I enjoy the prospect of getting to sleep late.  It doesn't always happen.  My kids are on a schedule and they usually wake up close to their regular time.  But 30 minutes extra sleep is nice.  The problem is my daughter.  She has autism, and does not like change of any kind--especially in her schedule!  I can guarantee melt-downs, hearing "I hate you" more times than I can count, and my blood pressure going through the roof.  I really wish I could sleep until Wednesday morning.  I mean, we aren't even Catholic.  Why should we get off for Mardi Gras??  Oh well, I guess I will survive.  And lucky me, we have spring break starting the 28th!

Unplugged(mostly)

After my hectic Monday, I decided to have a peaceful Tuesday.  So I spent the day unplugged--mostly.  No TV, radio, or computer(except family reunion related things.)  No FB games played today.  No stressing over the idiots in D.C.  Just peace, quiet, a good book, and laundry.  I NEVER get very far from laundry!  I must say I have really enjoyed it.  I do feel more relaxed.  Of course, the kids have been home for less than an hour, so we shall see how it is at bedtime.  Anyway, maybe this will lead to a better evening.  This is always the busy time of the day for me.  Homework, supper, baths, etc....  I may do it again for the rest of the week and see how it goes.  By then, I am sure I will be having FNC and Frontierville withdrawals!  ;)

One of those days

It has definitely been a Monday.  It started out good with the kids going to school and hubby to work.  Mondays are usually a heavy chore day.  Lots of laundry and clean-up from the weekend.  I started out buying the supplies and planting my strawberries.  Can't wait for them to grow!  I came in and fixed me some lunch, and B's school called.  He had thrown up at lunch!  His explanation:  My beef-a-roni fell in my chocolate pudding and when I ate it, it was nasty.  Seriously, I can't make this stuff up!  Was back home 5 minutes and he wanted to eat.  Umm.....let's wait a bit.  Then my phone started beeping.  Thank God for BB reminders, because I had forgotten all about picking up his pizza kit fundraiser.  Later we had his soccer practice.  She was very anxious so we came home and left him with Dad.  She decided to blow dry her hair in my bath.  She also decided to apply some lip gloss.  Too bad it was nail polish!!!!  Again, I can't make this stuff up!  Then she decided that nail polish remover was nasty.  I guess I have 2 more things to add to the list of things my kids won't eat!
Now, I am really tired and ready for bed.  Hoping for a better Tuesday!

I love spring!

Today has been a busy day.  I am sooooo loving the weather which allows us to get outside and do stuff.  I have already pruned the crepe myrtles and hedges.  Today, my husband pressure washed the house trim.  I planted flowers in my containers on the front porch and back patio.  I also cleaned out and readied my herb bed and out strawberry bed.  Even though I know it is too early to plant out garden, I am dying to do so!!  There is just something about growing your own food.  It just tastes better!  B was a big help today.  He carried supplies, and watered the plants when I was done.  C carried one plant.  But with her autism, I am just excited that she offered to do anything!  I am thinking about making them their own little garden plot to plant anything they wish.  I really want to pass what little knowledge I have along to them.  I am keeping a close eye on the pecan trees.  It is not really spring until they start budding out!

My guilty pleasures

I don't know about everyone else, but I sometimes feel pulled in way too many directions.  There is just so much for a wife and mother to do in a day's time.  I am an at-home mom, and really don't know how working moms do it!  At least I don't have to commute to my job.  I had to learn this the hard way, but I now take time for myself and enjoy little treats to maintain my sanity.
 My first confession is that I have a chocolate stash.  I remember when I was younger and I would hear other women talking about chocolate like it was the nectar of the gods, and I thought they were just making excuses to eat it.  I don't know what causes it--stress, hormones, ??--but in the last few years, chocolate has been my prozac!
Another thing I make time for is a long soak in the tub with a good book.  It takes some planning to get a tub full of hot water, but it is so worth it!
The most important thing that I refuse to give up is reading.  I don't think I could live without reading any more than I could live without breathing!  They provide a much needed escape from reality.  I mean who wants to clean, vacuum, and fold clothes when they can be reading about a hot Highlander or solving a serial murder case in New Orleans??  They also engage my mind.  I have always been smart and took great pride in that.  But lately I have been missing more and more questions on Jeopardy, and I am reminded of the old adage "if you don't use it, you will lose it".  That is one reason I like to read so many different types of books.  It keeps my mind sharp.
I do try to do at least the basic household chores before I read.  Most of the time anyway!  I am thankful that I have an understanding husband who seems to know when I needed a ME day.  I hope you other moms out there remember to take time for yourselves.  That is the only way you will ever be able to give your family what they need.  If you know of any other ways to de-stress and recuperate, leave me a comment.  I may just find another guilty pleasure. :)

Erring on the side of Life and Love

I don't know if you have heard the story of Baby Joseph in Canada.  He is in a vegetative state with an incurable neurological disease.  He is being kept alive with a breathing tube and ventilator.  You can read the story here:  http://www.foxnews.com/world/2011/02/24/canadian-family-life-support-battle-denied-request-hospital-transfer/?test=latestnews.
The courts have ordered his breathing tube removed.  His parents are fighting tooth and nail to keep that from happening.  I do not know how they feel, but I have a good idea.  My daughter was on a ventilator when she was born 13 weeks premature.
The parents want the hospital to insert a tracheostomy so that they may take their son home to spend his last days or hours with them surrounded by love.  The hospital refuses saying that it would cause pain to the baby.  I am no expert, but I believe that removing the tube and allowing him to slowly suffocate would probably cause some pain.
I support these parents and hope and pray that they get to take their son home and have some measure of peace and dignity during the little time he has left on this earth.  If you have children, give them a hug and kiss and remember to thank God for them daily.  And please hold this family in your prayers.

Introduction

I have been contemplating blogging for a while now.  I always have an opinion on things, so I figured I needed to share it.  Oh, and sometimes I just need to vent.  Tonight is one of those nights.  I am married and have 2 kids.  My son is 6.  My daughter is 11 and has autism, epilepsy, ADHD, and CP.  I love them both to death, but sometimes I wonder what possessed me to have kids???  Why did no one tell me how much hard work has to go into raising them?  LOL  Today, my day started with my daughter wetting the bed and having a bad seizure.  It ended with my son getting gagged on sinus drainage and throwing up at bedtime.  I will sure be happy to go to bed and start over tomorrow!

Anyway, I will be blogging about many different topics.  I am an avid reader.  I follow politics pretty closely even though it sends my blood pressure through the roof!  I try to advocate for special needs kids.  And I am open to any suggestions about how to de-stress.  If I find anything that works well, I will be sure to share it.